Hello Blog....
I've missed you.
I miss the days when after the boys were dropped off at school and Mr Smith was ensconced in his office and I had a hot cup of coffee at hand - it would be just you and me.
I'd edit some photos and you'd wait patiently for me to load them up so we could share them with whoever came round for a visit. Nice. Good times. I do miss those moments.
But things had to change.
The boys are getting older, and Mr Smith is busy building his empire and sharing his knowledge - I had to make a decision about me.
Now, bloggy, you know how much I love my photography. I get lost in it at times. I'm walking down the street and wish, wish, wish I had my camera right in my hands there and then because I just saw something incredible/inspiring/outrageous.....you get the picture (no pun intended!).
Like this morning, I'm walking down the street to my new job (Eveleigh Street - which is teeming with characters to be photographed if I dare) when a strapping older gent, in the bright purple shirt, priest's colour and gleaming in the morning light crucifix around his neck, rides by on a bicycle, splendid beard flowing in the breeze! SCREAMING to be photographed against the backdrop of the Aboriginal flag mural and eroding housing that is becoming Eveleigh Street. Amazing.
But recently, I came to a realisation about me, and about most of us humans I think.
We're told so often that if your passion is your work, you'll never work a day in your life.
I disagree. I tried.
I found a job which let me work in the field that is my passion - and all it did was make me not want to do it when I really SHOULD have been doing it. What I mean is, instead of picking up the camera because I was inpsired and loved it - I was doing it for work. And it was lovely, sweet. Photographing newborns on a daily basis, holding them, seeing a couple become a family or an even bigger family - was divine. The rest, not so much.
And so, I've gone back to what I know. What I'm good at. I've found a company that is truly unique and led by people with vision and even more amazing, with their ethos and heart in the right place. Somewhere I fit. And I like it. My mind feels worn by the end of the day and that's a good thing.
But you know what's best of all bloggy - it's made me want to pick up my camera again. I'm seeing with new eyes. The creative juices are flowing again because my passion is my passion again and not my job.
Now where does that leave us?
It leaves us here. Sitting down over a warm coffee - shooting the shit and telling it like it is. Just like the old days - only maybe less often. But I'll always come back to you - as long as you want me around and someone is lurking for a read.
Love ya bloggy.
Gab xo
